alas. the Econs exam is over. this time i can really throw away my Econs books for good (but i wont). weee!!! enjoy! enjoy! the exam was pretty okeh. i think i can finally pass it. ive got my hopes up! (:
after the exam, me, Naz, Sammy & Jin met Dina at BB MRT station & then we went off to my place. Mama helped cook us some pasta for dinner. thank you, Mama! :D
we had the awesomest kickass time ever yo! schoolkids gang GH jamming session ftw!
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my “girlfriend” means the world to me. even though we actually started this “relationship” just for fun. haha. well. its not fun anymore, B. i dont know why. it seems you keep putting distance between us. i can sense it in your texts, i can see it in your eyes.
even if i leave you now
& it breaks my heart
even if i’m not around
i won’t give in
i can’t give up
on this love
just so you know, B. even if i decide to remove the “In A Relationship” status with you. it doesnt mean that our friendship will grow apart. you’ll always be my baby 2.5! & i will keep loving you no matter what. youve been such a wonderful bestfriend to me this year. & i cannot thank you enough for making my days. (:
& you may think “people always leave”. because sometimes you push them away, B. i feel like youre pushing me away. but i wont go. im not going anywhere. im still here for you, Dina Hazirah.
today. i thought. & i thought hard. i almost felt like giving up on Shane. because the possibility of me & him are simply much too slim. then there’s racial complications. & National Service & school. i thought of giving it up - hopeless.
but then. i cant. i really like him. more than any other guy ive ever liked before. more than Mezzar. (definitely more than Mezzar) & im working so hard to get to him. the card (with my little confession)was step 1. the wait (for his As to end) is step 2. & the confrontation (when comes the time) will be step 3.
but all my life. ive always been waiting. & ive always been an impatient child. so i tend to get really sick of waiting. but i have to. i have to find out if anything could possibly happen between us.
so dear God. give me the strength. to keep holding on. to stay in hope. to stay in love.
& i keep on telling myself that you’ll come back around
& i try to front like “Oh well” each time you let me down
see i cant get over you now, no matter what i do
but baby, baby, i stay in love with you
